i remember why i did that thay year though
2019 was actually an awful year for me, depression wise. i was paranoid as hell and just like totally swarmed with negativity and distrust in people's intentions. in september, two people i was kind of close to ghosted me for caring about game lore. after that i was trying to change my outlook and cherish the people who were in my life so i like really wanted to make myself draw a bunch of surprise gifts for my friends because onw of my favorite things as an artist is how HAPPY people are to receive unprovoked art...
but then i feel bad cuz idk of i created a standard cuz now i just am unable to keep that up. im very inconsistent about getting birthday gifts cuz my mental state and motivation varies
but i did really enjoy getting to do that. maybe someday i'll get to do something like that again