This is my third username here. I originally went by "TSter The Great", but that was a ridiculously stupid nickname I gave myself when I was like 11 or 12. Once I started coming here really frequently and getting more known around here, I changed it because that name was so stupid. So I became "Mellow Ezlo", which was actually a fairly accurate representation of who I was (really mellow, yet quirky and sarcastic like Ezlo). I thought I was never gonna change it because that name fit me so well. I used it for a little more than two years. But then the site fell to **** back in October and I got banned for two months. During those two months, I missed both my real birthday and my ZD birthday, which made me sad.
I gave it a lot of thought during my ban. I wasn't originally gonna change my name because I liked having that sense of mystery. After all, I had never once straight up told anybody here my real name (though a lot of people guessed it). I left this place when it was a bit of a savage land. I kept browsing the forums while I was banned to stay up to date with what was happening, and so I was able to see it get better and better. By the time I returned, it was basically drama free.
So why did I actually change my name? Well, Mellow Ezlo was the person that trolled the site to get banned. I didn't want that reputation (even though I never got it). I went with my real name to reflect changes in both my online and offline site. I realized I didn't need to hide by using fake identities anymore. I realized that the forums truly feel like home to me and that I didn't need to hide, that I could just be myself. There were things I did both online and offline during my three year history here that I didn't want to be reminded of. In full, I decided to start using my real name here as a way to sort of start from scratch. I don't wanna be known as TSter or Mezlo anymore, I just wanna be me. And because this site is like home, I can do that.
When new members join, or older members come back, they will never know me as TSter or Mezlo, they'll just know me as Tristan. That's what I want.