Realizing now more than ever the permanent effects I'm suffering from abuse. I have this friend I met in 2015, we met over our common interest in Puzzle & Dragons, and sort of meme together now and stuffs and yeah. He's a good buddy of mine, but... lately, every time he vents to me about how worthless he is feeling, and events in his life where everything seems to be going wrong, I just shut down. I get flashbacks to what she did to me. How she made up things like the things my friend is sharing with me. I trust this friend. I know he's not lying, but... my brain is so damaged, that I just can't shake the parallels and I'm so afraid. I'm trying to talk to him now, and am apologizing for how distant I keep being, but what if he really is trying to take advantage of me? I trust him. But I also trusted her. Can I trust him? I hate this. Look what you did to me.