Hey, I don't know how things are playing out right now, but please listen. Please don't go through with it. I know you must be really emotional right now, and there's nothing wrong with that. You deserve someone who listens. Someone who's there for you and understand what it's like. There's nothing wrong with letting it out, especially now. Don't worry about what people think about YOUR emotions. It's better they think you an *** for crying than an *** for taking your life. There are people like you who need you. They need to know you can survive it. You seem like a bright guy, despite any illness or disorder you have.
Do what you need to survive. If you're living with your parents, maybe they're not saying anything cause they don't won't to hurt you. You can make it. I believe in you man. If you need anything hit me up on Fb or PM or whatever.