dang it. i was doing so well yesterday, but i crashed back down again today. i just feel worthless and lame. two main things got me down today. first of all, all my best friend's friends think i'm gay when they first meet me. a lot of people seem to, and i don't get why. I have nothing against homosexuals at all in any way, it's just i'm not personally attracted to men, so why do so many people think i am? Part of why this guy does is because i was standing up for gay rights at this party thing last night, which pisses me off.
The next thing is deeper. there's this girl i've known for a while, probably the only girl i would go as far as to say i loved her. Last summer she lead me on to believe she felt the same, then totally dropped the ball cuz i'm too "weird". anyway i've had a lot of trouble getting over it, and i'd almost convinced myself i had. well now she totally likes my best friend and is super hitting on him, and he's flirting with her too. he went so far as to ask her on a date to a hockey game that he originally got tickets for me to go to with him. She declined cuz she had something else, but it still hurt. Sometime's my friend can be so naive and selfish and it's very annoying.
so yeah now i'm down again which sucks. only good thing is a girl i used to know is showing interest in me, but really there's no point so it doesn't matter.