Feeling super depressed right now, for a few reasons
The people that said they'd be in a band with me totally bailed and are ignoring me
My luck with girls has been 0% recently
And the big one. I've had this friend for quite a while, my best friend in the world, the guy that changed me, the guy that made me who I am, gave me confidence, made me feel good about myself. We were honestly brothers. I loved him. Not in a gay way, but I loved him more than anyone. He was the most important person to me in the world. My only and truest best friend. He had a different best friend besides me, that he grew up with, but they were always in fights and hating each other sometimes. Anyway when I moved here to Scotland a year and a half ago, we were still very close. But over time we have grown more and more away from each other, and it's killing me. Each time I visit back home I still stay at his house, but it's like we know each other less and less each time. He's still so incredibly important to me, but I can tell he just doesn't feel the same about me anymore. On thanksgiving he made a tweet about how important this other friend was to him, and how he was his best friend ever and no one was cooler or better than him. I know it's not fair of me to expect him to only like me, but that was like a bullet to the chest for me. I honestly don't know what to do. I don't even know if I want to live anymore. I've never been as close to anyone as I was him. But he doesn't care. I really don't know. I've never been this depressed.