The time between my dad turning off the tv and him actually going to bed. If he'd go to bed when he says he would, this would be easier, but he's taking over an hour tonight. I need my music to stay calm. But to accommodate his going-to-bed ritual, every night I am required to stop everything I am currently engaged in, so I can acknowledge all the 'good night's and 'i love you's... and make sure I'm available for a kiss on the head! I'm in my 20s for ****s sake. He doesn't do this to my sister, either...
It's this hour long pre panic attack state of me holding my breath wanting to enjoy my music but not knowing at which point he's finally gonna make me stop my life so basically my existence gets put on hold every single night until he goes to bed... so I'm reluctant to start anything knowing I'm gonna have to stop. But then he won't go to bed. And why is this even a problem I'm forced to have?