I have to remind myself to not mention anything bad happening in my life like a death of a family member or what's wrong with me on here anymore. I forgot nobody cares about what I'm dealing with these days. -___-
Well, the fact of the matter is that this site–the internet as a whole, even–is full of faceless strangers, with or without your best interest in mind. All things considered, as 'strangers', they are not automatically obligated to give a damn about you or your life, and you–as a 'stranger' to them–are not somehow entitled to their sympathy and/or support, either. Like you, everyone on here has problems–of varying severity–to deal with themselves, whether they're open about them or not. The fact that people are going out of their way to try and help you in spite of that shows that they give a damn about you. It's mighty selfish and rude of you not to accept (or at least kindly decline) the help, and it's a huge slap in the face the way you wrote off their attempts to help you as 'not worthy' because 'they're not your friends.' Hell, Omnitheous has barely been here that long, and even he's offering you a shoulder to cry on. I'm sorry to say this, but: you may be older than me, but you seem to still have a lot of growing up to do. Regardless... I wish you the best, whatever happens.