Ugh, not really
I kinda have trust issues. I’ve been lied to quite a lot in my life, to a point I usually can’t really believe what people tell me even if I try to. Even the honest ones, I feel like most of the genuine compliments I’ve received either had a “but” or were backhanded ones.
Tbf, most of the time, compliments kinda happen in awkward moments, so they feel kinda off, as if the people felt obliged to say them because of some situation they’re in. So when someone compliments me in moments like these, this insecurity inside me kinda starts eating me away. Are they just being polite? Do they say the opposite behind my back? Is it pity? Is that even something that I want to be noticed for?
On the other hand, when someone just comes and gives me an unexpected and natural compliment, not to try make me feel better, nor with personal second intentions, but because they really appreciate something, oh boy. That makes my entire week so much better. I don’t even care what it was about. I won’t work on it, I won’t be proud about it, I’ll just be glad someone cares.
I’m not even sure how I usually react to those.
On the outside I prolly just shyly smile and try to change topics; maybe I get a little fidgety as if I wanted to hide somewhere nearby. On the inside it’s something that keeps repeating on my head, makes me feel warm; it’s just comforting.
Y’know, sometimes all you need are some nice words from another person when you’re not even asking for it.
Sorry about the little rant
im a little emotional today