I wouldn't say you're a man of little faith; on the contrary, faith is being SURE of what we hope for and CERTAIN of what we do not see, not guessing something is real and hoping it'll help us. But yeah, I tend to prefer living by my rules, so I'd never adhere to Christianity under the blind hope that it'll just make my life better somehow. Regardless of whether it "helps" me on this earth or not, if it's the truth, what choice have I but to follow it?
"Evidence That Demands a Verdict" is the kind of book everyone should, as I said, at least read the first hundred pages of. I haven't finished the book myself, but I already feel sorry for any debater, Christian or atheist, who argues their point without having read it. It's incredibly enlightening and is a perfect display of the physical, scientific, and historic evidence that Jesus and, of course, God exist. As I say, it's hard to find what you never look for, so I think many atheists assume there's no evidence without actually researching their claims to back them up.