I understand what you're saying. My apology was more or less because of the feelings building up inside of me, it wasn't because anyone directly told me that they disliked me. But I did know that I made some people feel uncomfortable and dislike me on the inside, they just wouldn't admit it. I partially wanted to re-invent myself so that I could be seen in a different light (and see myself in a different light as well) and also find out some member's true feelings for me. I know that some of my earlier friends on the forums feel that the change in my personality and the things I did just for fun and out of immaturity weren't bad enough to make them dislike me, but still it made them like me less as a friend. There are several examples, and I know for a fact that I'm generally not liked by the Mods. Anywho, now that I've vowed to change, I can speak to those old friends the same way I did before - straightforward, without any nonsense or trolling.
I also have immense respect for you, you are definitely one of the most honorable people I've talked to. I really do respect someone that is as wise as you and as good with words as you. What you say is comforting, and I know for a fact that you're a very nice person by the way you're treating me. I really don't deserve anyone's affection here, not until I can truly make amends.