online, i am just done. i dont belong anywhere. i found a nice group of people to talk bugs with on discord but someone told me yesterday that i know "too much" about bugs that i make it uncomfortable for them to talk in discussions. apparently im hard to approach and im so bothered that i might be keeping people from talking how they want because i took over a channel. today someone flipped at me for sharing a bug i saw in another channel (which i did spoiler tag with a content warning btw), and i just dont think i fit in... anywhere. i was already feeling lousy about this, but this is just kind of confirmation and ive been on the cusp of a mental breakdown for the past day or so
offline, i am ****ing burned out from my cousin bringing her gremlins over every. single. day. and their giant dog with a long ass snout that will lick you in the face from across the couch because his nose is just that long, you cant block him. cant handle babies, toddlers... and i cant walk so i just get stuck in a spot and have to deal with the two year old trying to steal my stuff that i put out of reach and he still gets them
also totk spoilers: been getting the geoglyph cutscenes, and i am feeling very let down despite having low expectations in terms of like the wasted potential of this game... what im getting of the plot is atrocious god moding playing with history like putty. it a way it feels more like a reskin of age of calamity more than it does breath of the wild