I am really happy to have my wife home, it's really been helping with my anxiety and a huge help with the baby.
Been feeling depressed over the past couple of days. I just feel like a terrible person lately and its affecting my personal life at home. Call me a doomer if you want, but I feel like my city is opening up way too fast. Hotel and casinos are pushing hard to re-open and pretty soon I'll have to call the entire staff in for re-opening training, and making heavy adjustments to the schedules, inventory, and getting the place ready for social distancing.
You still have to take your mask off to eat, if the customer even wants to wear one, and all it takes is one irresponsible person to infect me, and then I chance going home and infecting my family, one of them a newborn, and the other being my high-risk mom. I'm honestly afraid to get everyone back to work this soon, and it's giving me some pretty negative thoughts. Despite this, I'm still pushing on, working to enforce the guidelines and open up safely, but I just feel that it's still too early. The Las Vegas Strip is a huge tourist spot, and no doubt once the hotel/casinos open back up, people will be FLOODING THE GATES because MUH FREEDOMZ. It's a shame that we have to choose between paying bills and our health. I stare into my daughters eyes and want to be able to give her everything.
Luckily my wife is extremely understanding and has been full of support. Don't know where I'm going with this, just needed to let this out.
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Im so sorry, lots of hugs and comfort to you! ❤️
