Just wanna post this here rather than your blog so you definitely see this. You need to change your way of thinking about yourself. You're only given one life so make the most of it, don't think lowly of yourself it's unhealthy, be happy with what you have. I think I speak for most, because a lot of people on this forum see you as a great person. But that shouldn't be a high priority what should is you need to be happy with yourself. If you don't already, get therapy to help you with your self esteem. There's no shame in it. If you desire to loose weight then you can do so, you have the ability to change yourself. I wouldn't worry about your friends thinking you are annoying, I'm not sure exactly the extend of that criticism, but everyone can be annoying sometimes, maybe that's what they meant? Or if in general they find you an annoying person to be around, screw em. Friends shouldn't be people get get you down, you don't need those kinds of people. Keep strong Fig, and need any advice shoot me a VM!