I'm getting really sick of my dad's teasing.
I know he doesn't mean any harm, but it does really hurt me sometimes. I just don't have to courage to stand up and tell him. They're watching something in the living room right now, and I just heard my dad comment on my lack of presence in the room. He said something along the lines of "maybe if it were animated and had people yelling she'd watch with us."
After hearing that I just kind of stopped what I was doing and covered my face with my hands and teared up.
And it was the tone and the exact wording which really hurt. He's teased me a lot about anime in the past, so that made it sting even more. I'm not even watching any anime right now. I'm trying to sort through all the spiritual things happening to me. There's a lot of turmoil inside of me so I need time by myself where I can be silent and think through stuff and let my thoughts flow. The thing is he'll never know about that. So he just thinks I always watch anime by myself all the time, when actually I haven't watched much recently anyway.
I use music a lot to calm down. And that means using my computer with headphones on. He'll comment on that too. I'm sorry I use headphones so much, but I find that I'm becoming increasingly dependent on music now.
I know he loves me a lot, but still. Joking around like that isn't my type of humor, and it really stings.
I was super excited to show him an anime movie I found recently, but after that comment I really don't feel like it anymore. I don't want that to become another way for him to get at me.