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Jamie

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Hmm...

At the current moment, I'm worrying about if I can get my groove back in school; recently I've been worrying about if I'm going to make it through this year alive (seriously, real talk, sometimes it feels like I won't); if I will ever get better; if I will ever feel truly happy; if I will end up with a nice family; if I will ever not **** everything up, i.e stop being a huge failure..and that's just the start of it.

I worry about if I will ever be able to make new friends again; about if my family accepts and loves me; about which day my sister is going to die; about my weight, health, motivation, sleep cycle; about if I will ever stop feeling like I'm going to cry; about if my friends actually like being around me; about if I will ever be able to truly calm down and take things in stride; if I will ever stop having so many ****ing worries.

Honestly, I'm a complete goddamn mess and often times wish I wasn't here. As the school year comes to an end and every day I can barely stand being at school anymore, I feel like I'm slowly relapsing to how I was before as I think about how easy it would be to just end it. So I guess, my biggest worry, is if I can pull through all of this, which I suppose encompasses all of the above worries as well.
 

Vanessa28

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To be honest, I don't really fear anything. I don't fear death, I don't fear failure. I don't see anything as failures but more as valuable lessons added to my studybook called The Life I live. The only thing I would hate is when I'm like 75 years old and look back and I missed something in my life. Like having a family for example. That's the only thing i would hate not to have happened in my life. But besides that I don't really fear anything. I already suffered from losses of people I love in my life. I already had the traumatic experience called childhood and it was a nasty one. But right now there's no time for fear or worries. I only want to live a life without continuous worrying about anything.
 

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