Jamie
Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out...
Hmm...
At the current moment, I'm worrying about if I can get my groove back in school; recently I've been worrying about if I'm going to make it through this year alive (seriously, real talk, sometimes it feels like I won't); if I will ever get better; if I will ever feel truly happy; if I will end up with a nice family; if I will ever not **** everything up, i.e stop being a huge failure..and that's just the start of it.
I worry about if I will ever be able to make new friends again; about if my family accepts and loves me; about which day my sister is going to die; about my weight, health, motivation, sleep cycle; about if I will ever stop feeling like I'm going to cry; about if my friends actually like being around me; about if I will ever be able to truly calm down and take things in stride; if I will ever stop having so many ****ing worries.
Honestly, I'm a complete goddamn mess and often times wish I wasn't here. As the school year comes to an end and every day I can barely stand being at school anymore, I feel like I'm slowly relapsing to how I was before as I think about how easy it would be to just end it. So I guess, my biggest worry, is if I can pull through all of this, which I suppose encompasses all of the above worries as well.
At the current moment, I'm worrying about if I can get my groove back in school; recently I've been worrying about if I'm going to make it through this year alive (seriously, real talk, sometimes it feels like I won't); if I will ever get better; if I will ever feel truly happy; if I will end up with a nice family; if I will ever not **** everything up, i.e stop being a huge failure..and that's just the start of it.
I worry about if I will ever be able to make new friends again; about if my family accepts and loves me; about which day my sister is going to die; about my weight, health, motivation, sleep cycle; about if I will ever stop feeling like I'm going to cry; about if my friends actually like being around me; about if I will ever be able to truly calm down and take things in stride; if I will ever stop having so many ****ing worries.
Honestly, I'm a complete goddamn mess and often times wish I wasn't here. As the school year comes to an end and every day I can barely stand being at school anymore, I feel like I'm slowly relapsing to how I was before as I think about how easy it would be to just end it. So I guess, my biggest worry, is if I can pull through all of this, which I suppose encompasses all of the above worries as well.