So I'm talking to my niece on the phone because waiting at the bus stop in the bitter cold can be a drag, and I'm pathetic, when suddenly I hear a loud, jarring voice in the background. "Tell [name withheld] I say what's up!," the voice went, to which my niece tells me "aunt [name withheld] (my sister) says hi." At some point during my replying "hey" to my sister, she somehow magically wound up being the person to whom I was speaking on the phone. What's my point? Well, you see, I am not necessarily a family person and I've never gotten along well with my older sister. Well I guess you could say she's the kind of person who's easier to get along with from a distance. She recently moved back to Michigan from Louisiana, and I hadn't seen or spoken to her in three years. Anyhow, the phone conversation quickly went from "hi" to "what have you been up to?"...catching up. This eventually led to her asking me where I was at the time, to which I replied "waiting at the bus stop on my way home from work," which subsequently led to her volunteering to pick me up. And for whatever reason, I complied. Damn.
So on our way home, we talked about a lot of crap such as why I don't drive or why I work so far away from my apartment. I asked her if she could stop by a Wendy's because I hadn't eaten all day, and when I reached into my pocket to pay for the food I had ordered, she volunteered to pay instead (more like insisted on it). She mentioned helping me find a better job at a Chrysler assembly thing, which I never even mentioned needing; she even offered to pick me up from work every night from then on out, despite the fact I got off late and I live really, really far out.
Sounds pretty cool, huh? ...my sister being kind to her little brother and all. Well, here's the thing, it always starts like this before things go to hell. This is the part when my sister tries to get too involved. She'll try to 'help,' but her efforts will do more harm than good. If I let her get too involved, and she just so happens to help me buy a car or get a new, better job, she's going to want to take full credit for having done so. This means that if she ever asks me to do a favor for her, and I say 'no', it's going to be "WHO GOT YOU THAT HIGH PAYING JOB?!" and blah blah blah. She'll insist on things that are supposedly better for me, but in actuality aren't, and I would have to sacrifice any semblance of happiness and dignity I have to live with it. It'd basically like my entire life is being planned out for me, like a doll or something. If I even so much as thought about speaking out against her 'good intentions,' she'll lambaste me with something along the lines of "What are you afraid of?" or "Why are you making so many excuses?"...and so on.
Well I say screw that crap. I refuse to let her get too involved in my life. I'm not a teenager anymore...who she can just toy with and lay out life plans for and such. Nope. Ain't gonna happen. Not again. Damnit, why'd I have to go and give her my mobile number? Crap, I'm such an idiot. Ah, that's right she would have gotten from my niece anyway. Ugh.
I'm genuinely ****ing annoyed rn.