Today was just a slow and pestering day. I was informed earlier in the day that apparently my depression is found to be "trollish" to others. Do you really think that I would pretend to be depressed just to screw with other people's emotions are simply get attention. Clearly that is not my intention but as in most cases someone says something and others hop with that belief. It really urks me that now my sadness is now being shown is such a gruesome light as it has never been my intentions to troll others. Although I do have to say that I am sorry for always putting up my sadness in earlier times as I didn't know how to handle these situations. As you may or may not tell, I have severely changed my outlook on depression as I know I always try to find high hopes in any situation that I come across in. Though I personally try not to be depressed, I try to assist others with theirs because I want to let them know that I will always be there for them. It really annoys me that some people have the decency to consider a person's depression or depression in general as "annoying". You got to understand, not everyone goes through the same level of depression. Let me ask you this question: If you meet up with your suicidal friend, who has never told you about their problem and kept it to themselves but somehow they finally decide to go to you because he/she believes that you are the biggest hope/support they know, would you just blow it off and say that is merely a phase that they are going through? Absolutely not. Heck, I went to a suicidal/depression devoted event where the counselors informed us students how to handle someone who is depressed or suicidal or both. They insisted on informing that you don't joke about what they have to say because that just hurts them even more because now they think that their own hope that they had left was in you and when you didn't pay much attention to it, you might as well should have never said anything.
Going back to topic, it really sparks up a fuse in myself that my depression has been classified as "annoying" to others. I really hope that others who are going through depression do not hear that about their's as I was told about mine. Keep in mind, you don't know what's happening behind the screen so even as something as small as this could easily hurt them in the long run. This thought was in my mind for at least a week now and I personally believe that it has to be said. For anyone who's depressed right now, let me just tell you this: I may not able to fully understand your situations, but as long as you are willing to speak to me, I will always listen with both ears for I don't want to see you go down the path that I have once gone through, and was a dangerous and life-threatening path that I had went through. I'm glad that I'm out of that state, but I'm very certain that others are not as blessed as I am. I'm always here to listen to your problems because I want to see you guys shine brighter than the sun in your personal lives.