Well go punch tjem up for ya if we could...In ****ing tears cuz someone called me a hack for telling her that bees are wasps
Well go punch tjem up for ya if we could...In ****ing tears cuz someone called me a hack for telling her that bees are wasps
Ech go ahead dump your thoughts here its best to get it out somewhere!! Maybe youll feel like you can talk to parents soon...Kinda mad at myself rn for reading things that are going to start my anxiety again. I know it's going to effect me negatively, but I read it anyway because I want to know I'm not alone in what I'm going through. I browse exmormon reddit and I'm not a big fan of reddit (as many of you guys aren't either) but I keep going back because it's the only place I know where to go to find people who truly understand what it's like. I'm aware there's probably a lot of bias there and it's likely a bit of an echo chamber, but I don't know where else to go. I just don't want to be alone. I just want to know I'm not the only one. I tell myself not to bring it up on my computer but then I do. But the posts there always get me feeling a lot of emotions.
Just now some guy was talking about his experience growing up and how he couldn't ever say what he was feeling or thinking to his parents and it hit me hard. And he said how his relationship with his parents never became deep or strong because he had to play this act all the time. And that's when I started to feel that panicked feeling in my chest again and my heart beat started going faster. Thinking about the future always gets me panicked. I don't want what happened to him to happen to me. I read so many experiences people have had where their relationship with their parents plummeted because of this. It's not made up, so many people struggle to deal with it everyday. I don't want it to happen to me. But it's already happening, I'm becoming distant and I can't help it. I can convey panic through text but my thoughts circle through worst case scenarios faster and faster and I feel dread
why do I do this to myself
I hate how I always dump my thoughts here. You all are probably dealing with tough things, but I'm the only one who can't shut up about it. I'm always complaining and bringing the mood down. I say that, yet I post this. I'm so weak. I don't want to drag you guys into this but thinking about not talking about it anymore at all, my chest tightens and my heart starts again
why does my mood change so quickly
Kinda mad at myself rn for reading things that are going to start my anxiety again. I know it's going to effect me negatively, but I read it anyway because I want to know I'm not alone in what I'm going through. I browse exmormon reddit and I'm not a big fan of reddit (as many of you guys aren't either) but I keep going back because it's the only place I know where to go to find people who truly understand what it's like. I'm aware there's probably a lot of bias there and it's likely a bit of an echo chamber, but I don't know where else to go. I just don't want to be alone. I just want to know I'm not the only one. I tell myself not to bring it up on my computer but then I do. But the posts there always get me feeling a lot of emotions.
Just now some guy was talking about his experience growing up and how he couldn't ever say what he was feeling or thinking to his parents and it hit me hard. And he said how his relationship with his parents never became deep or strong because he had to play this act all the time. And that's when I started to feel that panicked feeling in my chest again and my heart beat started going faster. Thinking about the future always gets me panicked. I don't want what happened to him to happen to me. I read so many experiences people have had where their relationship with their parents plummeted because of this. It's not made up, so many people struggle to deal with it everyday. I don't want it to happen to me. But it's already happening, I'm becoming distant and I can't help it. I can't convey panic through text but my thoughts circle through worst case scenarios faster and faster and I feel dread
why do I do this to myself
I hate how I always dump my thoughts here. You all are probably dealing with tough things, but I'm the only one who can't shut up about it. I'm always complaining and bringing the mood down. I say that, yet I post this. I'm so weak. I don't want to drag you guys into this but thinking about not talking about it anymore at all, my chest tightens and my heart starts again
why does my mood change so quickly
My whole side of mom's family is Mormon, and I get constantly judged by them because my dad and I are very outspoken about our feelings on Mormonism.Kinda mad at myself rn for reading things that are going to start my anxiety again. I know it's going to effect me negatively, but I read it anyway because I want to know I'm not alone in what I'm going through. I browse exmormon reddit and I'm not a big fan of reddit (as many of you guys aren't either) but I keep going back because it's the only place I know where to go to find people who truly understand what it's like. I'm aware there's probably a lot of bias there and it's likely a bit of an echo chamber, but I don't know where else to go. I just don't want to be alone. I just want to know I'm not the only one. I tell myself not to bring it up on my computer but then I do. But the posts there always get me feeling a lot of emotions.
Just now some guy was talking about his experience growing up and how he couldn't ever say what he was feeling or thinking to his parents and it hit me hard. And he said how his relationship with his parents never became deep or strong because he had to play this act all the time. And that's when I started to feel that panicked feeling in my chest again and my heart beat started going faster. Thinking about the future always gets me panicked. I don't want what happened to him to happen to me. I read so many experiences people have had where their relationship with their parents plummeted because of this. It's not made up, so many people struggle to deal with it everyday. I don't want it to happen to me. But it's already happening, I'm becoming distant and I can't help it. I can't convey panic through text but my thoughts circle through worst case scenarios faster and faster and I feel dread
why do I do this to myself
I hate how I always dump my thoughts here. You all are probably dealing with tough things, but I'm the only one who can't shut up about it. I'm always complaining and bringing the mood down. I say that, yet I post this. I'm so weak. I don't want to drag you guys into this but thinking about not talking about it anymore at all, my chest tightens and my heart starts again
why does my mood change so quickly
been feeling pretty similar to that this past week ex, I get how it feelsI feel like I been having a major anxiety attack all day and nothing I do makes it go away
feels pretty miserable and I don't know what to do
Try using a steel or psychic sandwich and just chill in any ruin area, they'll show up a tonI can't find a single bonzor and I need to farm materials! ughhh.