This happened a few years ago. It's kind of bitter-sweet, so you don't have to add it to your list of entries if you don't want to. It's very important to me though.
I once had a cat named Geoffrey. He was Gizmo's best friend, they would sit up in the cat tree together and play fight, and it was adorable. He was my sister's cat, I had Gizmo and she had Geoffrey. he would like to go outside a lot and run around with Jewel. The way we found him was that he ran up to my family's car when it was driving, so he wasn't really scared of anything. He was brave, too brave. One night, I let Jewel in, but I forgot that Geoffrey was out. Then next morning we found him injured. He must have wandered too far, and bumped into one of the big dogs that live around here. He wasn't scared of anything, so he must have not been afraid of it and went up it. The dog had sunk its teeth into his leg and shook him in the air. He didn't look very injured on the outside, but inside many bones were broken. I stayed by his side the whole way to the vet. I comforted him and petted him and told him it was going to be okay, because what else could I do? I wouldn't let myself think of what might happen to him, I wouldn't let me think that he might be too injured. I told myself over and over that he was be okay. But he wasn't. He had to be put down. He was just too injured and hurt to live a good life anymore.
I didn't take the news well at all. I remember hugging my sister, since he was her cat, and then quickly leaving the room to be by myself. I never like showing tears or crying in front of someone, so that's why I was in such a rush. I locked myself in my room and cried out to God. I kept asking him why, why, why? Why did Geoffrey have to die? I think I stayed in there for a least an hour, just crying. But I finally stopped, and just went on with my day in gloominess.
Now, a few days after he died, I had a dream. I had a dream I was playing with my cousins, and Geoffrey was there. He was there in spirit, and I could see him running around with us and having fun. That dream really comforted me, and it told me that Geoffrey was still here, he's here with us, he's by our side and he's happy. He doesn't have anymore pain, he's not injured anymore, he's happy. I believe God sent me that dream to comfort me, and to teach me. I've learned through that dream. Deaths aren't that painful anymore to me. I know that every cat that I love and who've died are now in a very good place and are happy. That comforts me, and it's lessened my guilt of his death. For months I felt responsible for his death, but I know it's not my fault. I didn't know he was out, it wasn't my fault. It's still hard to remember that, but I'm glad I had that dream. If not, I still might be very sad and angry at God, but I know that everything happens for a reason, and maybe Geoffrey's death was supposed to teach me a lesson. I still miss Geoffrey so much, but I understand he's in a better place now, and I look forward to seeing him again one day.
I'm thankful for that I can think of Geoffrey with happy memories of when he was here, and one day I can have even more memories with him. I love him so much <3
You don't have to use this if it's too sad, and if you aren't comfortable using stuff with a lot religious stuff in it. I just really wanted to share this big learning moment that affected my life, and I hope you got something from it.