What would a brain's texture be like?
I have Power and Courage teeth. Want to Link them all together and make a wish?I HAVE ALL OF MY WISDOM TEETH
Slippery and with smooth ridges.
I feel happy, sad, jealous, selfish, loved, hurt, and crumbling all at once. This truly is awful. There are few things I hate in life, and not knowing what to call this feeling of many feelings is one. I'm kind of scared right now. I keep trying to tell myself my feelings are irrational, but I don't quite know if they're irrational or why I'm feeling them is. Regardless, this is all very strange and uncomfortable. The icing on the cake is that there's really one or two people who could maybe possibly help me get my head in better order, and communication with them is not quite an option. Maybe more tears will help.
Why do I have siblings? Why on earth do I have such a bunch of losers as siblings? What did I do in my past life to deserve this?
I know depression can be a very hard thing to get out of, but I do have some words of encouragement from the Bible regarding the anxiety that's preventing you from dealing with it.This has probably been said a billion times here, but it's my turn to let it all out. I feel empty and broken, physically and emotionally. I am just... so incredibly depressed right now my heart literally hurts, I can feel it hurting, and the rest of my body hurts. I've cried so many times today I've lost count. And all this pain is my own doing, because I was fighting so hard to obtain something I knew deep down I could never have. And in the end it was me who broke myself, and now I have to suffer the consequences. It's kinda weird, though. Normally venting this stuff makes me feel better, but now I'm kinda hurting more. I've never been so depressed I was in physical pain before, or at least this strongly. My muscles are stiff and tense, and my hands keep shaking. Every heartbeat feels like a nail is being driven through it. My eyelids are raw from wiping away tears. I'm a hot mess, I'm more than a mess, I'm a disaster, an emotional war zone. I don't know what to do about this. I'm too afraid to try and solve it, I'm terrified of approaching the issue anymore because I'm afraid of what could happen. I just don't know what to do.
Pain, physical and emotional. Like I never really understood it, I've always been able to control it to a large extent, like I can just work through minor injuries just by telling myself that they don't hurt. The same goes for emotions, people make them out to be something you can't control, but I can change how I feel emotionally any time I want, in fact I do that frequently.
Yeah, I think part of my problem is simply not understanding other people well enough.