I keep crying myself to sleep every night, and today I was on the brink of tears for really no reason (or no reason I'd like to share, let's put it that way), and so I went out to the garage to finally clean it and to be alone. I was Putting the old tree box away (we got a real tree this, year, I'm happy about that), and I was standing on a workout bench in there so I could put the box where it belongs. I can't really explain how this went out I just know I fell backwards suddenly, the box came down with me, I hit my head and a metal pole and I cut my leg on an old tricycle. I don't really know what went on in my head, but I guess that thwack knocked something into me (I'm not good at articulating my thoughts, and so I can't really explain it, I don't really want to try anyway). I cried for the same "no reason" as I spoke of earlier for a while in the garage, but now I'm just feeling somewhat calm, or dry, I'm not really sad or in despair. I guess I'm just feeling gray you could say, because I'm not happy, but I'm not feeling all weepy about it. Just dry sighs. *sigh*