Mellow Ezlo
Spoony Bard
I was watching someone on YouTube talk about their story of emotional abuse and it opened up some old wounds related to (a) certain family members taking advantage of me and my sister when we were younger.
The problem is, I came to terms with what we went through. I accepted it and while I don't talk to that family member all that often, I still love them. Now part of me feels guilty still loving them and talking to them now that what used to happen is back on my mind. Once I came to terms with it, I was able to continue to establish something of a relationship with that family member, but now that it's resurfaced in my mind I don't really know what to think.
Anyway, what's on my mind is stuff that happened many years ago that watching someone share their story caused to resurface. It's funny when you think certain things are behind you but then the memories can get triggered when you least expect it.
The problem is, I came to terms with what we went through. I accepted it and while I don't talk to that family member all that often, I still love them. Now part of me feels guilty still loving them and talking to them now that what used to happen is back on my mind. Once I came to terms with it, I was able to continue to establish something of a relationship with that family member, but now that it's resurfaced in my mind I don't really know what to think.
Anyway, what's on my mind is stuff that happened many years ago that watching someone share their story caused to resurface. It's funny when you think certain things are behind you but then the memories can get triggered when you least expect it.