I've stopped denying the obvious. The data doesn't lie - i'm situated squarely in the bottom quarter of gaming talent. At least when I find myself at the bottom of leaderboards, it won't seem like a cruel joke any more.
I always like your posts. You are one of the persons I really like not only because of your posts but also your personality is what I like ^^ I know it will get better but it sometimes just slaps me in the face and it is still so hard to realize she is not here anymore.
I know how you feel. My father would have turned seventy-six this past Friday. He passed away fifteen years ago this coming February. The sadness never completely goes away, but hopefully you can eventually learn to use the time to remember the good times you had together.