A song making me think about am I really being me? I feel torn in two, part of me one way, the other another (not bi polar), but rather how I think I must live my life, and the other "Wicked Dreams," as Chappell Roan sings. Not sure its really wicked though, just what people call it. It's hard, I was raised in a very conservative household. I am trying to figure out how much is what I want for my life and the rest is acting according what I think God and people in my circle think I should.
Its hard when your told from birth you have this destiny.. you have to be this person, and yet you feel all your impulses pulling away to an extent. At the same time, not all of it is acting, I do believe in my God, but surly he understands if we wait for perfection.. nothing is ever gonna happen.. like if he wants us to act as if this is paradise, why put us here? I know.. I know.. don't bring religion into this thread, but I am real mix, I don't what the hades I am.. and I am in the prime of my life they say.