My mom's mental ups and downs from the brain bleed are becoming more prevalent. I think I may have isolated a cause, but its hard. One day she is herself as I have known her most my life, the next a child that needs my help. and the next she is very manic in the sense of her hyperfixation: like if she feels itchy. My Father is really struggling post surgery, and there is concern about his new pain. I am not complaining, just expressing, venting that its hard seeing my parents who were so capable and do it yourself people need so much assistance. I am learning a lot: how to cook well, manage emotional tensions, and even some of juggling I have to do with my mom's memory has helped me learn a technique of how to compartmentalize things about my own values and those of others and what they believe is true. Good is coming from this, but stress too and I am managing that in ways I know best.
Thanks you all for letting me share here, it helps. It really does.