aww hope shes ok.....Mentally, emotionally and physically wasted. I feel like that most of the time anyway but had to take my wife to the emergency ward in an ambulance last night (it's not my place to share details) and I've just come out of s Kung Fu grading this evening. I need it to stop now, please.
I completely understand how you feel! Thankfully no one ever pushed me into driving, because I also had a fear of it and likely would have been near/full on panic attack at the time. I came to the decision on my own and only got my license last year at 28 years old. I've always had dreams throughout my life about crashing into water though, and when I'm in a car near water I have intrusive thoughts about the car driving into the water. So it really took me a long time to become comfortable with the idea of driving and I had to do it on my own. I only recently started driving some on my own (and not very far), and have gotten comfortable and used to it. I actually enjoy driving on my own now. It gives me a feeling of independence which is nice. I still do have some fears occasionally that creep up and I do still have the dreams and intrusive thoughts. But the first few times especially of driving are the hardest. It will eventually get a bit easier, and less scary. Though I don't promise those fears will ever truly go away. And I don't know how your parents are, but driving with them may not help either. My mom makes me a lot more anxious because she is a big backseat driver and likes to tell me conflicting things or act like I'm doing something wrong when I'm not just because she doesn't like when others are driving.My dad was halfway home when he made me drive the rest of the way. I've turned old enough to drive, but I haven't had lessons or anything, so my confidence behind the wheel isn't exactly great. Did I mention I'm also super nervous and scared of driving? I made it home, but I almost hit a mailbox along the way
agh I almost had a panic attack. My legs are all wobbly now and I feel weak. As soon as he told me to drive my heart started racing, and it still hasn't stopped since I just got back.