They won't let me stay here because my reason isn't good enough.
There is one thing that you can do, however.
It may not be one that you would like, but ask yourself if you would like it any other way.
If you truly love Pendio, and he loves you as well. You two could get married. Then you will be able to stay without fear of deportation. I know that this may be too soon for you and him as well. However, you could do it, and stay with him, being married.
I'd hate to see you come back into America into such a horrible life. And I am sure Pendio feels the same way. This is an inorganic way of getting married, I know. But if you both truly think that it is inevitability that it will happen, then go ahead and do it so that you can stay.