The first thing you need to do ASAP is drink a glass of water, this always helps me and many others when we feel angry, anxious or generally down.Y'know, Idc anymore, I have to get this out.
Every single time I check the shoutbox, someone happens to do something funny that makes me laugh. You know what laughing does to me? Makes me the insane psychopath I am. And you know what happens next? crazy sh*t before a shoutbox ban, or eventually worse of this keeps up.
My personality basically is inclining me to be a quiet, depressed little monster just to keep my privileges! I'm 15, I've only got 3 years left before all the fun in the universe is locked away from me and I have to get a boring-a** job just to keep from becoming the next hobo! I don't want to lose any chance at fun and laughter, but I can't do that with how I am!
Do you know how this makes me feel inside? When I finally realize what I've done, it makes me feel like garbage. Just another useless piece of trash in the world only here to make others' lives miserable. And that makes ME miserable! I can't take it anymore! I JUST CAN'T!
I don't know what to do now...
Second of all I urge you to read a good book to take your mind off a Fan forums shoutbox.
Thirdly you can donate some money to my paypal account and I will draw you a picture of a fox.