honestly i should feel like a terrible person, but i don't. it's like i lost touch with my morality and guilt. I somehow go to church every sunday not feeling like crap even though i've broken practically every rule in the book for my church. It's like i still believe it, i just can't handle the rules. Since i believe it, i should feel terrible when i do something wrong, right? Life is so confusing right now. Honestly i can just hit a bong like it's no big deal, not feeling bad about it at all, but when i was younger i would cry when i accidentally said a bad word. What's happened to me?