I must say, this is an inspiring story. Like you, I find solace in Pokemon; as a matter of fact, I can relate very much with Gold, though I call him Silver. I am also silent and lonely, but I strive for the goals I have put up for myself. As a child I would call myself Silver. But as I have matured I call myself Sojourn. Sojourn is the greatest, the most mysterious, and most powerful. This is who I strive to be. This is who I rely on when my life falls apart.
Red is a wonderful role model. And I am glad you chose him to be so. Though I cannot say I have experienced the same trials you have endured, I can say that lonely has driven me to places and motivated me to do things that I would have never acted upon if I were to have a normal life. Because of my loneliness, I am stronger. Because of my loneliness, I am faster. Because of my loneliness, I am Sojourn.
Your written travails have inspired and motivated me to such an extent. I am sorry to hear of your losses, however. Stay strong, true, and righteous.
~Sojourn