I understand that, but I don't think anybody feels instant reward from everything like that. Sometimes it really is about the long haul and though it can be disheartening, and maybe it is a trick, that is still meaningful. I don't think emotions and feelings are always tied up with meaning. I don't think anybody's brain is trying to fool them on purpose, it is just doing what it is supposed to which is give you a reason to carry on and to do that you have to have meaning. Why is that meaning any worse than if you felt really happy in that first instance? If you think about it from an evolutionary perspective, all living things exist to survive and continue producing more of the given species. For animals with less complex emotion and less intelligence, that just means eating, having babies, and not getting eaten itself. But for humans, who have natural curiosity, we have evolved to apply meaning and reason to everything because it helps us to sustain life and to see a reason to carry on. But deep inside, who knows if that meaning is actually real or is just there because of evolution? If the universe is completely random, so maybe is our need to understand, and we are pre-wired to think something is significant when it isn't. In that case, the meaning might not be instantly apparent or have anything to do with feeling.Well, first off, during that given moment where you failed the exam, that disrewarding moment would have no good value and worth to you. But it is only later on when you get a rewarding experience from that would it then be of good value and worth to you. Even though I am living for a future recovery, that is just my brain's way of fooling me into thinking that gives my life good meaning when it never did since I am not having any rewarding experience (optimism) from that since I don't have my pleasant emotions.