It's... complicated. And I honestly don't know...
do I consider myself a geek/nerd? Or do
others simply consider me to be one?
It might sound like I'm jacking around with the question because I'm "in denial" or something, but to be honest when I'm on my own, doing things I love I don't think "Oh, I'm making a non-gaming related post on a gaming forum now gosh this is so geeky". It doesn't
feel geeky to me, it just feels like I'm doing something I want to do (or a way of procrastinating with something else XD). It's only when someone asks me "what did you do on friday night" and I see the look they give me when I answer "Oh, I stayed up trying to get this one last achievement on Assassin's Creed" or something do I think "Hey, actually, that sounded kind of geeky...
". Or when they ask me that question, and I make an excuse to hide the fact I was doing something that they'd consider geeky do I realise that yeah, in some ways I am pretty much a geek.
But the weird thing is, there seem to be different levels of geekiness, and I seem to be somewhere inbetween. I mean, I'll play games for hours on end, 100%ing them and doing speed runs... but yet, I've never touched any PC/Playstation games. I'll waffle away discussing the finer points of some games on internet forums, but yet there are so many series' I've never even really touched (like Metroid, or Final Fantasy, or Half Life, or any FPS you care to name). I own and Xbox 360, yet don't have an Xbox Live account, and don't want or need one either. I just don't
do online multiplayer. Or RPGs. Physically, I don't really fit the "geek" stereotype either- I barely ever wear gaming shirts, I don't need glasses, I don't have a brace (now) etc etc. I go do stuff with friends on a regular basis too. Heck, I've never owned anything made by Apple, I don't watch anime, and my now 5-year-old mobile phone sits forgotten in the bottom of my bag half the time... heck, I don't even have a facebook account. I usually sit with the "loud and proud" geeks at breaktime at my sixth form, but I feel so... pathetic compared to them. Like I don't belong, like I shouldn't be there, pretending to be a geek... I'm afraid to bring things up because I know they'll probably flatten me with their superior knowledge and make me seem like such a wannabe.... idk.
Despite that though, I think if I asked them, most people who know me would probably admit I do seem pretty geeky to them. But I get the impression I confuse people when I meet them, because I don't quite fit in the little "she's a geek" box they want to put me it. I love gaming, reading, writing, making art, obscure music, spending hours looking things up on the internet, or reading ahead in my textbooks
just because I genuinely find it interesting. But yet, at the same time I love hiking, I love travelling, I love climbing and ice skating and mountain biking, and I love making new friends and having a laugh with other people because nothing feels better than making someone else smile. Sometimes I dabble in new things, but more than once I've drawn the line and just drifted on (Pokemon's a good example of this). Just because I read my textbooks, doesn't mean my grades are ridiculously high either- heck, half my homework gets done at the last minute if I actually remember about it. I don't even know what I want to do with my future academically- I just want to be happy, whatever I do.
Verging on a wall of text there, but it needed some explanation. Do I consider myself a geek/nerd? Not entirely... Do others consider me to be a geek/nerd? Probably... Am I a geek/nerd relative to other nerd/geeks? Not really.