I had a really dumb crush on one of my friends in kindergarten, and I told my best friend that I would marry her one day. I remember the details of that day in full. We went to school like usually, I told my best friend "Hey, do you ever want to marry someone?" and he said "yeah" and I asked who and he told me the name of the girl and I told him the name of the girl I liked. The feeling I had in KG was like...a bad feeling. It tickled me, and I don't know why. I still kind of like the girl because she's so nice and understanding and quite pretty if I may say so, but I think me dating or even marrying her like I so intended would be a horrible thing for me to do. I never ever told her that I liked her, but I don't regret not telling her.
Other than that, there were several times were I was 'attracted' to a girl but I crushed that feeling underfoot. To be extremely honest, love and crushes and girl/boyfriends are completely useless while you are still in high school. Rather than focusing on outsideofschoolwork work, you should be focusing on schoolwork with your full and undivided attention so you can get a good, secure job and hopefully go to college.
If I didn't think the way I did (and do) then, I would have asked out a girl named Jessica, another girl named Abbey, and probably myself just for the laughs (no, I don't think it would work out between me and me. There just wouldn't be that mutual feeling, you know?
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Last year actually, I was asking a lot of my girl friends (they are female friends, I've never dated anyone and I do not plan to unless I would get married to that person, and I don't think I would engage in polygamous activities either as that would be depressing for me and hurtful to the wife) how sweet girls (meaning the ones who are really nice and thoughtful and wouldn't do anything to hurt anyone unless they absolutely had to) fall in love and what they feel, I never did get a straight answer. I also asked how 'regular' girls (regular meaning they have mood swings and are fussy at times) fall in love and how they feel, but I didn't get an actual answer out of that either. I know very well how a regular guy and a sweet guy fall in love, as I'm quite the observer and I've had a crush before.