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  1. Lydia

    Things That Are on Your Mind

    So, an update to this. I realised I *do* have feelings towards her, and after a lot of thinking (oh, and I also asked some other ppl who have PTSD what I should do if I was to date someone, and they recommended taking it slow) and awkward half joke-flirting, she asked me out. We also discussed...
  2. Lydia

    Things That Are on Your Mind

    Eyy, it didn't turn out how i was expecting it. She did ask if there was anyone i was attracted to though, which was weird because she knows i'm not social, and don't talk to many other people than her... But anyway, our friendship is still exactly the same, and she hasn't ghosted me! :)...
  3. Lydia

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    Oh god, yet another friend is asking me about relationship advice... And she's asking how other people would see us, since I talk to her way more often and more openly than her girlfriend does. I swear to god, if she asks me out and then ghosts me when I tell her it's not mutual I'm gonna be...
  4. Lydia

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    The usual lump on my knuckle has had me paranoid all day, so I decided to take some pressure off with some good ol' bloodletting. Okay, stabbing myself in the hand probably isn't the best thing to do in that situation, but whatever. I've been told by a few people now that my issue is...
  5. Lydia

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    lmao i guzzled a pineapple and raspberry cider and it went straight to my head. i guess it makes sense because i haven't had anything alcoholic in months. maybe i'll socialize in vr, because i usually stay muted around people, but i'm hoping this'll help me loosen up. ...caramelldansen is a...
  6. Lydia

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    The last 3 days have had really weird weather where I am. There's been like, 2-3 rumbles of thunder and a bit of rain, and then it stops within 5 mins or so. It's done this like, at least once per day. ...It's really disappointing yet strange...
  7. Lydia

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    I was prescribed a new cream for my face, and it's clear for the first time in 4 months. It was dry and cracked for so long, i forgot how nice it felt to be able to relax without worrying about it making a mess of everything! I just need to get my antidepressants sorted and everything will be...
  8. Lydia

    Things That Are on Your Mind

    So far, Beat Saber and VRChat. Beat Saber is a good workout, and it's really fun to play. VRChat is mostly because I can be face-to-face with my friends and it's like they're actually there :) oh, and it's cross compatible with PC, so I can interact with people that don't have a headset...
  9. Lydia

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    OH MY GOD, VR IS AMAZING!!! Probably the best £400 I've ever spent!
  10. Lydia

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    My VR headset that I ordered yesterday is apparently arriving today! I'm guessing that the reason it was so fast is they already had some in stock over here, so I won't have to pay a customs fee? I really hope so. But this is probably the fastest delivery I've ever had, wtf. It was supposed to...
  11. Lydia

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    ...I really wanna play Skyward Sword for some reason...
  12. Lydia

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    Some weirdo DM'd me asking what I'd do for money, yet again. they tried the same thing on a different account, word for word. I'm playing it super innocent and it's making my friend laugh. but by the Goddess Hylia, this person is hella kinky. And apparently super rich. ...and a really bad liar.
  13. Lydia

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    It's so calm and peaceful today, it's almost possible to forget there's a worldwide pandemic happening. :) ... But it seems some people have forgotten :ananger: There's a ton of people outside in groups, without protective gear on, and paying no attention to social distancing. I'm legit...
  14. Lydia

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    Turns out the reason my skin's been in such a bad condition lately, is because I'm allergic to the cream the doctor prescribed. My skin went from a little irritated and dry, to cracked and bleeding, and now it seems to be easing up now that I've stopped using it. Either my doctors are really...
  15. Lydia

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    I went to bed at 10am, and woke up at 1am. I then ate ice cream for breakfast. What am I doing with my life? Is it considered day drinking if i get the alcohol out now?
  16. Lydia

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    My mom picked up my meds from the pharmacy for me while I was asleep! :) I've needed my antidepressants for over a week, and now I finally have them! No more wild mood swings or breakdowns!
  17. Lydia

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    I'm not sure what I've done to upset my mom, but she stormed up the stairs to shout at me for something super unreasonable. One of our cats climbed up her leg and stabbed her afterwards. Retribution tastes so sweet. I swear I'm not laughing. Okay I am. I'm totally cackling.
  18. Lydia

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    One of our kittens has just discovered his claws, and he loves stabbing us. He climbs onto shoulders exactly the same way his mom did when she was that age.
  19. Lydia

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    I went out to get my antidepressants earlier, and it was eerie how many shops were shut. All with the essentially the same message - Closed due to Coronavirus lockdown. Try to stay at least 2 meters away from people.
  20. Lydia

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    Aha, I've just been told what happened! There was a break in to a shop in the middle of the village, almost exactly where I was getting the vibes from. A bunch of kids apparently kicked the door of a cafe in, and stole some stuff, not long after I got home. o_O
  21. Lydia

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    I ended up sleeping it off, so either I'll find out what happened tomorrow, or I avoided whatever it was (:
  22. Lydia

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    I get these, uh, "bad vibes" when something bad is about to happen, and I've never been wrong before with them. Every time I've had one, something nasty has happened (sometimes it'll be that someone or something dear to me will get damaged or hurt) I was in the middle of town, and I got a...
  23. Lydia

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    I'm 99% sure one of my friends has OCD and PTSD. She shows the exact same signs that I did a few years ago, and before I was diagnosed and medicated for my own. The compulsive apologizing is one of the reasons. The way she repeats the same thing over and over reminds me of when I did the...
  24. Lydia

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    My friend was playing some weird ASMR video over Discord, and muted herself so that we could hear it. I played the Lego Yoda death sound super loud, she started laughing and unmuted herself, and I almost choked on a carrot stick. There's nothing I love more than making someone wheeze from...
  25. Lydia

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    My cat has kittens, and I have no clue when she gave birth. We knew she was pregnant, but it was still a surprise. I'm glad my family got back in time, I don't think I'd be able to care for them (IK that the parent looks after them for a while, but still).
  26. Lydia

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    I just got a notification that someone used the 'find your phone' feature to track my phone o_O It popped up with; 'Find your phone' 1 1 I deactivated my location, but I'm gonna be hella paranoid now...
  27. Lydia

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    Traumatic memories, one that was very deeply suppressed. Also, it really says something when the person that's threatened to slit your throat in your sleep tries to use your correct pronouns, but your mom won't try at all (:
  28. Lydia

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    I went out to get some air because I was feeling annoyed and ran till I blacked out. It reset my mood and helped me get some frustration out, so I'm feeling a little better.
  29. Lydia

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    I bought the Fighter's Pass, and I really like Joker. Also, I absolutely destroyed my friend with Byleth, while she was complaining that they're too slow :)
  30. Lydia

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    no clue. i don't usually snore, but it would've been embarrassing if i had been, and was unmuted.
  31. Lydia

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    I accidentally fell asleep while in a discord call with my friend. Oops. Thank goodness I was muted.
  32. Lydia

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    i narrowly avoided a freak out :) i could feel myself starting to get agitated for no reason and i wasn't coping too well. i decided to take a 2 hour nap and i'm feeling a lot better. sleep is a wonderful thing.
  33. Lydia

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    I'm trying to save up for a VR headset but I keep getting distracted. I'm like "ooh, pretty knife", or "ooh, a game I've wanted for a while is on sale". I need moorreee money.
  34. Lydia

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    I just found an old SD card of mine. I suddenly realise why I had no friends at the time. I have Minecraft screenshots of me being an asshole to people in chat. wtf, younger me. I deserved all the loneliness I got lmao. I also found some decent stuff though.
  35. Lydia

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    When I told him he looked like a kid I went to school with, and told him a bit about that kid, he started ignoring me lmao i said that the kid was nice and friendly, but a bit weird. apparently this is the way to get people to leave me alone lol he definitely wasn't my type anyway :P
  36. Lydia

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    So far most of them have known my gender identity, and i'm pretty sure one of them was specifically flirting with me for that reason.
  37. Lydia

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    ye, i'm ugly as ****. these people need better standards, jeez
  38. Lydia

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    There are people thirsting for me on sites where I have no avatar, and people that know what I actually look like...
  39. Lydia

    Things That Are on Your Mind

    Sorry, my WHAT? They won't tell me who it is... How the **** are there so many people that want to date me? I'm not interested in dating anyone yet wtf
  40. Lydia

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    I decided to skip sleeping so I wouldn't miss the smash direct. I've hit the point in sleep deprivation where I'm unreasonably happy and energetic :D
  41. Lydia

    Things That Are on Your Mind

    Hah, I've seen these: A few times. I think they were in Home Bargains...
  42. Lydia

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    I took sleeping meds and had 4 hours sleep, compared to my usual 12 or so... I don't think that's how they're supposed to work :shrugs:
  43. Lydia

    Things That Are on Your Mind

    Oof. I struggle to sleep any less than 12. It's a curse tbh. I did stay up for around 24 hours beforehand this time though. -- The electric ran out just as I hopped in the shower, again :mad: I'm telling ya, I'm cursed lmao
  44. Lydia

    Things That Are on Your Mind

    I slept for more than 20 hours. Oof. I can officially outsleep a bat. :cool:
  45. Lydia

    Things That Are on Your Mind

    I've reached the point of sleep deprivation where housework seems fun :^^: listening to music and letting the useful parts of my ocd take over a little, life seems pretty good~ i got to the point where I started dozing off earlier, but after 50 situps, I'm pumped enough to continue with the...
  46. Lydia

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    Hah, no. This is my first alcohol since October 8th. I kinda freaked myself out when I got too tipsy. This stuff was just what my mom offered me, and I didn't want to be rude and turn it down. Thankfully it didn't do much to me, because I wasn't the one in control of the moderation :sweat: And...
  47. Lydia

    Things That Are on Your Mind

    Glenmorangie. My mom said it's more expensive than anything I've had in the past. ...still tastes like acid reflux lol
  48. Lydia

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    I'm drinking some fancy 10 year old whiskey and it just tastes like spicy water. I don't get the appeal lmao
  49. Lydia

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    Yeah, I told her about the whole not-getting-romantic-feelings in the past, and also when she confessed. She's got a really bad memory, so I hope this got through to her. I really don't want to keep repeating myself like some kind of groundhog day-esque situation. Over the last two days, she has...
  50. Lydia

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    Ah ****. My friend just told me she fancies me. The feeling isn't mutual, and I have no clue how to deal with this. I'm bi, so her gender isn't the reason. I just uh, don't know if I feel romantic feelings. I haven't felt them at all in the last 5 years, so idk what to think. but damn uhhh...
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