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So, this is my first time logging in since I left, because HOLY **** SKYWARD SWORD HD IM SO ****ING HAPPY RN. AAAAAAAHHHHH! That's all I can say, so I'm probably leaving forever again lmao

Hopefully once this all ends, facemasks won't be mandatory. and although i do struggle with some types for various reasons, i hope they won't be considered a 'weird' thing to wear, especially when someone is sick or vulnerable. i like the aesthetic of some of them too, but that's beside the...

So, an update to this. I realised I *do* have feelings towards her, and after a lot of thinking (oh, and I also asked some other ppl who have PTSD what I should do if I was to date someone, and they recommended taking it slow) and awkward half joke-flirting, she asked me out. We also discussed...

I dreamt about someone who never existed, but who felt so real to me. I had actual memories of growing up with her. In the dream, I had an older sister, Emily, and a twin sister (I don't remember her name though). Emily took me caving after I asked her, but there was a rockslide that killed...

I'd probably go for Wind Waker, BoTW and Twilight Princess, but most of all - Oneshot and Night in the Woods. those 2 made me cryyyyy like crazy, and they convey emotion so well,,, both gave me post-game depression tooo, like, damn.

I've been busy, so I haven't drawn much recently, but I did redraw Toga!

Eyy, it didn't turn out how i was expecting it. She did ask if there was anyone i was attracted to though, which was weird because she knows i'm not social, and don't talk to many other people than her... But anyway, our friendship is still exactly the same, and she hasn't ghosted me! :)...

Oh god, yet another friend is asking me about relationship advice... And she's asking how other people would see us, since I talk to her way more often and more openly than her girlfriend does. I swear to god, if she asks me out and then ghosts me when I tell her it's not mutual I'm gonna be...

I bought some new Converse shoes because my old trainers' lining was rubbing the back of my heel raw, & I got a decent sized discount for them :)

Eeughh, i missed my meds for one night and had a nightmare about almost all the things i'm terrified of, and people i haven't seen in years. During the dream, i kept losing consciousness, so when i woke up for real, i still thought it was happening :(

Pulled a muscle in my neck because i forgot to do warm-ups yesterday, and it still really hurts today. Also, my ping has been terrible the last 2-3 days, and it's annoying af.

I bought a pull-up bar, and I didn't **** putting it up! I'm usually terrible with DIY (and don't even have the confidence to try most of the time because i'm scared i'll break something), and I did it with no help (:

it's so damn hot,,,, it's 30c, and my favourite temperature is around 10c :dry:

I turn 19 at the end of the month. Where the hell did the year go?? Also, my mom is trying to get me to move out, and I'm terrified at the thought. I'm not mentally ready to live alone! I still haven't had the therapy I was told I desperately needed for my PTSD, depression, identity issues...

My internet is back up, and works better than it ever has!

My Wi-Fi's been down for nearly 4 days now, and I'm running low on data. Apparently it's something on the provider's side being buggy, and they were supposed to have fixed it a few days ago. This sucks.

My friend has her stuff back, so we're able to chat again :)

My friend had her stuff taken away from her, so I won't be able to talk to her for a while. I don't know how long that'll be, so that sucks. Usually hanging out with her helps distract me from my less-positive thoughts, so now I'm not sure what to do :( I always thought that "being so lonely...

i just found out about my older brother's spending habits. apparently he's spent over £1000 on *"adult content"* recently, and he's buying and consuming nearly a kilogram of sugar every day, what the ****??? meanwhile, we're barely scraping by each week on what money we have. I hate his guts...

I finished season 1 of Re: Zero last week. ...and then binged the entirety of Attack on Titan. Wow. It's one i've known about for a long time and i never thought i'd be into it, but holy ****, i loved it.

The usual lump on my knuckle has had me paranoid all day, so I decided to take some pressure off with some good ol' bloodletting. Okay, stabbing myself in the hand probably isn't the best thing to do in that situation, but whatever. I've been told by a few people now that my issue is...

Accidentally crunched down on my antidepressant instead of swallowing it. Gross.

I've been trying more drawing styles out, and tried not to draw so small to make it less blurry. here's Ferris Argyle from Re:Zero: i think the eyes are slightly askew, and it's annoying me, but i've redone them like, 5 times,,,

I accidentally knocked a bowl onto the floor and it smashed, and a shard managed to slice my leg up. I'm actually surprised I'm not feeling faint, because I usually do if i see a decent amount of my own blood. It'd be nice if I'm finally getting over my phobia.

Hell no, I'm not some kind of pet that needs to be tracked. I'm perfectly capable of carrying cards and remembering passwords. I certainly wouldn't trust the government to use any of that information to my benefit.

bought a bunch of pride stuff on amazon my mom could potentially be pissed, but idc lmao edit: she'd probably be more annoyed if i got another weapon tbh, so i'm hoping she won't be

lmao i guzzled a pineapple and raspberry cider and it went straight to my head. i guess it makes sense because i haven't had anything alcoholic in months. maybe i'll socialize in vr, because i usually stay muted around people, but i'm hoping this'll help me loosen up. ...caramelldansen is a...

I drew Himiko Toga from MHA!!! I've done nothing but anime faces over the last month (I probably won't post them though, they're pretty basic), I think i'm getting the hang of them! I'm actually super proud of these ones, I can't stop smiling at how well they came out! :D

A storm the other day apparently took a few mobile towers out, so my internet has started being super slow and it disconnects randomly. :dry:

Finally got my antidepressants, and I managed to sleep for more than 5 hours for the first time in about 4 days! :party: Oh, and I got paid. The last month was rough because I spent it all on VR on the first day. Perhaps I should plan further ahead next time... Oh! And one of my kittens was...

The last 3 days have had really weird weather where I am. There's been like, 2-3 rumbles of thunder and a bit of rain, and then it stops within 5 mins or so. It's done this like, at least once per day. ...It's really disappointing yet strange...

Yeah, pretty much until I was 16-17, I wasn't allowed to watch anything with the slightest reference to magic or paranormal stuff. I never really shared what kind of games I played, so I was free to play Zelda, but Pokemon was off-limits till my mom eased up on that sort of stuff.

I was prescribed a new cream for my face, and it's clear for the first time in 4 months. It was dry and cracked for so long, i forgot how nice it felt to be able to relax without worrying about it making a mess of everything! I just need to get my antidepressants sorted and everything will be...

I spent a good 5 or so hours with my younger brother :) We've kinda been a little distant due to me being pretty much nocturnal since lockdown started, so it was nice to catch up. We played in VR for a bit, and then watched some MHA together before he went to bed. It was overall hella...

Item: Sheikah Slate (BoTW) or Pegasus Boots (MC) I'd want the Slate specifically for the Stasis and Master Cycle runes, and the boots would make me much faster. Weapon: Master Sword (TP). I mean, it's lightweight enough to swing around while running, and it looks amazing. Either that, or an...

I was crying (probably because I ran out of antidepressants and also I've been prescribed different ones) and one of my kittens came in purring like mad, and he headbutted me till I smiled at him. Now I'm choked up about how sweet that was. :pikalove: I swear to god, I'd kill someone if they...

Pretty much the only thing I miss was being middle-class and not having to constantly worry about money problems.

Hell no. School was really traumatic for me, and my home life was even worse. I was bullied by so many kids, and even one of the teachers. I made a friend, but his mom thought I was a bad influence for some reason (she thought I'd turn him gay somehow?), so made him cut off contact. The...

My cat seems to be doing fine after the dog attack. He's back to acting normal and the wound seems to be healing :)

Most of my memories up until like, age 15 all make me cringe. mostly because i'd panic whenever someone approached me, and i'd mess up my words every single time (Still happens nowadays sometimes, just less often). I remember the once when I was 12-13, I had a massive crush on this girl in my...

Some bastard dog got a hold of one of my cats, and he's got some nasty looking teeth marks on his side. We've had him since he was a kitten, and we took him in not expecting him to survive that night, as he was a tiny runt, and nowadays he's a massive beast of a cat, but not very smart. I...

I haven't played many violent games, because my mom was kinda overprotective of me when I was younger, but recently I've taken a liking to games with a little gore in them. Either Left 4 Dead 2 or Warframe. L4D2 has more blood, but WF has stuff like degloving.

I'm actually super self-conscious. I spend a lot of time thinking about how others view me, and how I view myself. Usually it's very negative, so I try my best to look presentable. I usually just end up wearing a loose jacket/hoodie to hide myself. I think about it a lot, especially when my...

It doesn't hurt much, but it itches like hell, so I have to make an extra effort to not touch it at all. Thanks! :)

It started off as just a patch of dry skin, and then one day i caught it on a little metal thing on my jeans, and it tore open. I didn't feel it at first, (and because I was playing smash bros, i was moving it around a lot, so it made a huge mess & i didn't notice till i looked down and saw it...

Probably the one time my friend said she genuinely thought of me like a sister (including the playful rivalry).

My hand bled twice today. First time wasn't bad, second time was an absolute mess though. It's so stressful knowing that it could randomly burst with no warning at all :( "If it bleeds again, I'd recommend getting it cauterized" - the nurse that bandaged it up the first time it bled. It's bled...

So far, Beat Saber and VRChat. Beat Saber is a good workout, and it's really fun to play. VRChat is mostly because I can be face-to-face with my friends and it's like they're actually there :) oh, and it's cross compatible with PC, so I can interact with people that don't have a headset...

I got my mom to try out Beatsaber on my Quest, and it was hilarious watching her attempt Crab Rave :D

OH MY GOD, VR IS AMAZING!!! Probably the best £400 I've ever spent!