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My friend keeps begging for forgiveness every time she makes a mistake and it breaks my heart. From what I can tell, she had a pretty similar childhood to me, except both of her parents were abusive. I feel so bad for her every time she apologizes. I wish I could fly over to where she lives and...

I'm feeling much better than I was earlier, after spending time around friends. God, I never want to go through that again. I know it'll happen again eventually though and that worries me. But hey, it wasn't him. It was just a lookalike. He can't hurt me or my family anymore.

I saw the doppelganger of the person that caused my PTSD. I was shopping and I turned the corner and was face-to-face with him. I ran the other way and almost burst into tears Where I ran to, there was someone getting pissed over something, in the exact manner he would. I've never had a more...

Hoping I get paid before the Steam sale ends. I've got Skyrim and No Man's Sky on my wishlist and they're both half price. Got my hair straightened again. It's a little messy, but whatever. My sleep schedule's gone out the window again because I can somehow sleep 14 hours every night :shrug...

I've just finished volume 3 of RWBY. Jesus, that was brutal with the character deaths.

I'm getting used to the pain of routine exercise. I actually like the muscle ache, in a strange way. Also, 3 days till I can buy my sword. Probably going with just the decorative one.

My mom straightened my hair and it feels strange. I like it, it's just that I've never had hair that moves in the wind before.

Wolverhampton is a strange place. Just in my way to the coach, I was nearly hit by a guy on drugs because he was swinging his bag round. Seen a couple of hobos too. I did see some pride flags though, so that's nice.

Yep. I'm probably going to get there at 12, because it's a 4 hour journey, but as i'll be with my family (my mom's in a wheelchair and my brother's on the autistic spectrum), I may be able to get in a little quicker than most, because Westfield has a [Twitter post] about carers getting in early.

I'm a little nervous for my trip to London tomorrow, but I'm feeling pretty good today. I woke up at a decent time for once too, so there shouldn't be too much issue waking up tomorrow morning.

I felt really down earlier, so I started a Pokemon White randomiser to keep myself distracted. I started with a Riolu and my first encounter was a Dialga. Next route, first encounter was Victini. A shame neither of those are in Galar. Also, my joycon drift seems to only happen when the switch...

hey, if i was planning on stabbing someone, i'd use something much easier to conceal, like a pair of scissors or a kitchen knife :shrugs:

Nah, I don't, I've just always wanted to buy a sword haha

It's nothing special, just a stainless steel one [this one] is probably what i'm going for. It doesn't mention anything about the tang, but I probably won't be swinging around much.

Gonna buy a bastard sword with my next paycheck. Got a really fancy one in mind. I'm sure if I asked my mom's permission, she'd say no, so I'm not asking her lol. I've always wanted one and now I can finally buy one now I'm 18. At least it's not drugs or alcohol :shrugs:

The main side effects from my meds seem to have passed. The dizziness and drowsiness is gone, and I can easily fight off the tiredness now. I think the positive side of them has started, because I've been less moody and I've been in quite a pleasant mood the last few days :)

yeah, it opened October 18th and is only open for another 11 days. It's a shame, because Europe really needs a permanent Pokemon centre

Got a coach booked for the 12th to go to the Pokemon Centre in London. I'm going to spend waaayyy too much on plushies.

Bleh. Mirtzapine is weird stuff. I've been saying a lot of my thoughts out loud without meaning to. I'm all drowsy and dizzy. Already flipped someone off today, which i've never done before, haha. Apparently it's best for me to keep taking them now i've had one in my system. The weird feelings...

Bah. My sleep's ****ed up again. At this point I'm thinking I should just sleep whenever I feel tired, no matter what time it is.

Do you ever just look back on your old comments and just think; "damn, I was a little ***** lmao" Lmfao, you idiot ****ing heathen Pathetic. Also kinda shows my mental decline, but I'm less stuck up now it seems. Also I seem more accepting of people. Edit: pretty sure there was one about...

I'm finally starting to get used to the controls in Hollow Knight. I was completely lost, until I found out I could buy a compass. Pretty handy when you have no sense of direction.

My mom says what I've described to her sounds exactly like what happened before every mental breakdown she's seen. I've experienced a breakdown from the view of a family member. I saw my older brother go through one. His was violent. I'm not a violent person, so I hope mine doesn't end up like...

I don't know anymore. I should be seeing a psychologist on Tuesday, hopefully.

Bleh. I was in a state of pseudo-delirium from 10am-3pm due to lack of sleep, until I finally drifted off after hours of lying still. Once I woke up, it was 10pm. What the **** is going on with my life? Where did I go wrong? I haven't felt the sun on my skin in so long. I crave the sweet embrace...

I've been lying awake for 7 & 1/2 hours since I went to bed. Nothing makes sense anymore.

I just realised I haven't seen a single meme made with this scene.

Accidentally unearthed some dormant trauma. ****. I feel sick.

???? Why does my brother have Megalovania as his morning alarm???? There's something so jarring about hearing it early in the morning, especially seeing as I haven't got to sleep yet.

I managed to sort out something for my monitor situation for now. It's plugged into my tv, so it's usable. Also, I have acquired f r u i t c a k e Shops are doing mince pies again too, so I'm happy.

I was gonna buy Hollow Knight today, but my monitor broke, so now I'm gonna have to buy a new one first. Awful timing, as usual.

People keep recommending me Hollow Knight. I'm thinking I should buy it.

My second most favourite YouTuber killed me in a Minecraft minigame, then replied to my Twitter post about it. Aaahhhh. I started the day as a depressed piece of ****, but someone tagged me in some wholesome memes completely unprompted and then this happened. I also saw a couple of foxes after...

I'm an idiot and shouldn't be trusted around alcohol. After a lot of water, I'm sober again.

I'm drunk??? Or just really tipsy and I feel bad . I'm not good with moderation

30 hours wasn't enough to reset my body clock apparently. I didn't get to sleep till 5am and somwhow slept for 13 hours. ****.

Haha, just a coincidence. The character is supposed to be a reflection of negative emotions, which has been kinda relatable recently.

30 hours of sleep deprevation. Here's to hoping it will do anything towards correcting my sleep pattern. Hopefully I don't just end up sleeping for 24 hours and negating any positive effects it would have had.

Still going strong 6 hours later. I'm thinking of Halloween and Christmas, because this is the first time I can experience them properly, as I was always prevented from doing so by my family's religion.

I'm gonna pull an all nighter. Imagine needing sleep lmao

I should probably sort my sleep schedule out. I've been saying that for a couple of years though, and I'm not dead yet. It's nearly 7am and I haven't slept yet, and this is becoming regular. I probably won't awaken till 4pm. I should either become completely nocturnal or pull a few all nighters.

It's coming up towards Christmas time, so fruitcake will be plentiful soon.

I want to get drunk and eat fruitcake but I'm broke and don't have my ID yet.

I've just learned what Celeste 100%, no assist constitutes of. I may need intervention. It's 6am and I spent all night collecting strawberries in a video game. What am I doing with my life?

I should finally be seeing a therapist soon, to talk about everything I've kept bottled up for the last 5 or so years. Also, it was 40c two weeks ago, and now it's dropped to 6c. How the **** does that work?

Sans is in smash. What. My younger brother is ecstatic.

My WiFi's back up somehow! I'm not sure how long it'll last, but I'm happy for now. Also, I got the final 0.17% completion in World of Light, so I've got 100% :)

My cat keeps coming in the house, smelling of roses. I'm guessing someone in my neighbourhood has a bush of them that she's sitting in.

I've made a friend for the first time in like, 3 years :) Aaaaaaaahhhh I'm so happy!

My older brother (who recently moved out) decided it would be 'fine' to break in. He climbed through an open window and had the audacity to shout at me for not knowing it was him and letting him in. WTF. He claimed that he did it because 'he was cold and could have died' because it's a little...