Hey, sis, I just read your blog and that thinking of someone close to you part made you come to mind...yeah, I would likely be very sad if I only had memories of you, you are my pride after all :>
So, with that said, try to keep smiling now. All that stuff may have you feeling down, but in the end all will be well, if you truly need to cry then feel free to do it on my shoulder though...because after all, that's what big brothers are for *hugs you*