i talked to sophie again... she is having a bad life. i told her she was lucky that she wasn't me... which she is, she has friends that care about her existence. i have three... she hangs out with her friends... mine are always busy. people like her and want her around... people want me gone...
i write more music nowadays... i've been teaching myself more stuff on the guitar... so i have something to do to pass the time but otherwise im alone... not in anyway any human should be... in groups im invisible. and outside of groups... same story.
wow... a psychiatrist... i waana be a shrink so i can make others shrinks feel bad about what they do!!! ... ... ... ... ... ... well i can't do that cuz i'm a musician. (yes the teacher was from tacoma) she taught at a ****** school... (i don't think i should call it that...) i mean the special school...(?) i hung out with sophie for the first time (yesterday) since i told her i liked her a couple of months ago... then i talked to my friend that talks to her all the time... (but he has no affection for anyone all he cares about is school... and helping me get the girls that i like.) he told me something... when i told her (that i liked her) last time she sed something and everyone else sed she was lying to me... but yesterday my friend told me that she would never lie to me... then i reminded him that she would never lie to him and that i'm a different story... i would like to believe him... but its so hard to believe wen depression run my life.
p.s. GET A FACE BOOK SO WE CAN TALK ON THERE TOO!!!
hey Dreamdevourer dude... you know what? i've been listening to i don't care from apocalyptica Ft. three days grace... and i can't stop listening to it, i just love that song... have you heard it? (you should)