For anyone that looks upon this page:
I am crushed.
On 9/21/09, I started to deal with depression. On 10/21/09, I was almost happy. I had overcome a month of depression, and I was just about to seal my anger away forever.
But that changed.
10/23/09, I realized too many things all at once. All overwhelming, I realized that happiness is fleeting. I had my chance at peace and happiness. And I failed.